shakespiers

when you come back, i hope your smile is 12 times wider, your arms a hundred feet longer, your heart a million miles larger, your skin 3 shades more brown. you spread your wings hoping they'd catch you. well, i knew they always would.

if you put your thumb in the center of my chest you would be able to feel the motions of my body, the circuitry of my stuttering heart, turning on a dime & rushing into uneven current. i am faithless & erratic & poison, if you touch my sternum you will know that the anger in my bones is not a disease, but the salt that bleeds out of me when i am trying to be strong erodes me. my right arm aches. maybe i read on the internet that that is a symptom of an impending heart attack. if my blood clots in my veins & my arteries seize up & refuse to pump, i would go willingly as long as i had first known your touch. i wanted to write you something to

are you a map of the world. the oceans are too far for the span of my arms. seabird, we became cartographers. i listened for your call overhead. i waited for you to come to me. you arrived in a rush of weather. i see the storms in your eyes. rain down on the back of my neck, you, somewhere else. the trees grow & they don't know it the world turns & it is not aware cycles spin on, we are, birth & life & death, is all there is we are all there is keep holding on the shadows on the walls move slowly. we crawl over the ocean towards each other, our hands like vines marring the brick. every weather destroys every house will burn speak

a ballad about how i jumped the gun & told you i was in love with you the day we met a slow, desperate song about lying a downtempo hardcore ep entitled "running away" the tenderest emo instrumental that whispers "i'm sorry" in your ear as i leave your bed

i want to be more than the clay in your hands

i am not enough for you so don't follow me you are the brightest flower & i was born to rot

you taught me how the lack of somethings presence can be a presence all of it own. your absence filled the entire room.